Well, it feels a bit like confession time. I have written and rewritten this blog numerous times in my head, it still feels like a scary thing to do, but hey if this can help someone else out there then my work here is done.
So you may have noticed of late I have been doing the whole Dairy Free and Gluten free buzz. I thought I’d share my reasons for this change.
For quite some time I knew things weren’t quite right with me, but I thought I just needed to pull myself together however I could. I would have bouts of depression and fatigue but they would pass so I thought in time things would just get better. Financially things were tight and the kid’s needs always came first, so I always found a reason not to follow through and see someone.
In brief that year, we had a lot of health dramas going down with the family and at times it was bloody full on. I jumped from one emergency to the next and basically just stayed in fight or flight mode, ready and armed for the next event like a ninja Mum!
In the meantime what was happening to my body? Well, my body was pumping out the stress hormones cortisol and adrenaline left, right and centre. This makes you feel like it’s okay to keep going and going (because you are literally reeved up), the highs are high but the lows keep getting lower. People handle stress in different ways and mine was to just keep on trucking because you are a mum and you just have to right?
Finally, the let up of stress happened over Christmas that year. So I thought to myself sweet, we are in the clear. I had a lovely relaxing summer break and life was good. Then a few months later it turned a bit pear-shaped for me. I developed a virus and became rather unstuck rather quickly. After the virus my energy levels did not return, I was running on empty and I became depressed again and had no idea why.
The answer in short – Adrenal Fatigue my friends, that shit…..is real!
Long-term stress does not just leave the body, it turns out you have to deal with that – sorry!! My body was over it! There I was, exhausted, sad, trying to keep up with the basics and struggling. I was sleeping during the day just to get through the afternoons – in short, it was bloody awful. I became a bit reclusive and dreaded the quick passing question of “how are you?” When you ask that question to a person you never expect the person to return casually and say “actually my life is out of control, I am miserable, exhausted and I don’t know what to do anymore”. Instead, you say, “Great thanks, how are you guys?” Leading question diverted, phew. I was wishing my days away, waking up tired every morning, even after 8+ hours sleep, just willing the hours away so I could get the kids to bed and I could sleep again.
How did I get help? Well, it started with a whole lot of support from my husband and family, who have helped me through these challenging months. My amazing husband has been there with me in the trenches with my despair, anxiety, defeat and supported me through it all. Also, my two boys who have hugged me when they don’t understand or know why Mummy is exhausted and crying all the time.
Next step who could help professionally? Where do I go? What do I do? At this stage, I had no idea what the hell was really going on. I felt like I could barely function as a person let alone look after a family, but I put on the mask and carried on as best I could. I would like to thank an amazing women Debbie at Mount Acupuncture, who through my sobbing phone call knew I was desperate, struggling and needed help. She has been key to my survival in getting through the first few months and a tremendous support. She helped me get on top of my relentless sobbing, constant foggy head, deep sorrow and work through it until it passed.
Once I rode out the emotional stuff (man it wasn’t pretty)! I realised, however, my energy was still lacking and knew there had to be something more going on. Would dietary changes help? Was I lacking in anything?
This is when I started going to the Healing Room where they work alongside you using chiropractic, applied kinesiology, nutrition and emotional release techniques, to truly address the deeper issues and causes behind your health concerns. It was here that my Adrenal Fatigue was confirmed and a plan put into place.
In my case, I’ve had to address a variety of issues as a result of the body overcompensating with Adrenal Fatigue. This may not be the case for other individuals. As a result, I am working on improving my gut health which is why I am currently dairy and gluten-free. I also need to help strengthen my immune system and address my emotional state and how I manage that. I was low in B12 which is vital for energy and after taking B12 for 2 weeks it made a such a huge difference.
It was such a relief to know I wasn’t going batshit crazy! It’s been a slow recovery so I have had to re-evaluate things and priorities. I think the most challenging part was not exercising at the time as this really helps me to feel good. I just became so shattered anytime I did anything physical and I had to reserve anything I had. The biggest lesson has been self-care, making yourself a priority (easier said than done as a parent) Which is so damn important.
I am still on the road to recovery, but feel like I have emerged enough to share my story. I actually haven’t told a lot of people because it was so hard to have the conversation without becoming a mess, so I just didn’t go there, I just put on a mask. So… it’s officially out there now, eek! Being able to acknowledge where I was, to where I am now is monumental. You see a lot of things out there about Adrenal Fatigue but what I wanted you to know is what it looks and feels like from the inside, how it may show up so very differently for different people. You could be in one of the 3 stages now, reading this and thinking this sounds all too familiar, or this may sound like someone you know?
If something in here resonates with you, or you can recognise yourself going down this track, please stop and reach out where you can. You need to make some changes to your life now, and be kind to yourself because the road back from Adrenal Fatigue is a slow one but not an impossible one. I would love to hear from anyone who has gone through this or is currently there. Or if you felt this was useful, please share your thoughts on this….
This one was from the heart xox
Kia Kaha xo